Tuesday, October 30, 2007

NOSTALGIA

I have been feeling very sad, depress and stress out lately, why? Maybe because of the spin I'm in - Homesick Blues.

Does anyone knows the medicine for Homesickness?

Sometimes even if we strive hard to cope with sadness, we tend to look for the familiar surroundings, people, and routines that provides us the sense of security and comfort.

Maybe in time, once my new surrounding and people around become more familiar, feelings of homesickness "MAY" go away. But still I hope and pray that I can find the place where I belong, the sorrounding that can ease this nostalgic feeling I have.

HOMESICK by Mercy Me

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you againTo see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Plainsboro, New Jersey - Plainsboro Township is a township in Middlesex County, New Jersey, United States. It was the Spring of April 2007 when I first landed my foot on this Place. It was a mixture of excitement and sorrow. Excitement - at last, I have fulfilled my dream of working in US. A long time dream that has finally been granted. Sorrow - grieving bacause I temporarily left my loveones (family and friends) without any clear signs of when I could go back home again.
I was happy to gain new friends but I can't deny the deserted feeling of trying to live miles away from your comfort zone. But life has to go on.......



Monday, February 5, 2007

Commercial break! Classic Meaning of Soulmates

The concepts of soulmates arose from Greek mythology. According to the story, our ancestors once had 2 heads, 4 arms. They did something to offend a god so that god punished them by splitting them down the middle, resulting in the creation of humans. As a punishment, we are condemned to spend our lives searching for the other half, our soulmates.
Spiritual Soulmate Concepts
Many religions and spiritual paths believe in reincarnation and the concept of karma. Through reincarnation, soulmates may spend many lifetimes together in past lives.
Companion Soulmates
These are people that we encounter through their life. These are usually friends, teachers, mentors, or other people who have helped you achieving a life's goal or helped you out of a crisis.
Twin Soulmates
These types of soulmate are your closest friends or a person whom you really click with. According to those who believe in reincarnation, you have already met them in a past life, and in this life you are continuing the relationship. There is an emotional bond between these soulmates and each is able to sense the feelings of each other..
Twin Flame Soulmates
This is the most popular type of soulmate. There is usually one twin flame soulmate for each of us. Twin flame soulmates have spent multiple lifetimes together in past lives. There is incredible chemistry and attraction towards each other. They "complete" each other and only few lucky people are able to find their twin flame soulmate. Twin flame soulmates, if separated, usually suffer enormous pain.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Singapore..

It was July 2005, together with my friends Ruby and Julius we visited our friend Rachelle and explored the small but clean country of Singapore. We paid about $200 each for return tickets on Tiger Airways from Manila to Singapore. This is about one-third the ticket price of some airlines. To be continued...






















Friday, January 5, 2007

Some thoughts to ponder on...

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face.

The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him.

After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend ask ed him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?" The other friend replied "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

Do not value the THINGS you have in your life..
But value WHO you have in your life!

Monday, January 1, 2007

Boracay

Boracay Resort is one of the hottest travel destinations in the Philippines attracting thousands of foreign travelers every season. The world famous Boracay Island is located in Aklan province 345 kms. South of Manila. Boracay Philippines is a beautiful small island surrounded by coral reefs and located one kilometer north-west of Panay in the island Visayas. It is 7 kilometer long and 1 kilometer width at its narrowest point. October 2005 when I first went to this beautiful paradise. To be continued..

Saturday, December 30, 2006

I cried for my brother 6 times

This story touched me so much. Maybe because I am also a person who loves my family so much. May this story inspire­ you as well. Have a nice day everyone!

I was born in a secluded village of a mountain.Days by days my parents plowed the yellow dry soilwith their backs facing the sky.

I have a younger brother, 3 years younger than me.Once, to buy a handkerchief which all girls around meseemed to have, I stole 50 cents from my father'sdrawer. Father known about it right away. He made my younger brother and me kneeled against the wall, with a bamboo stick in his hand. "Who stole the money?" he asked.

I was stunned, too afraid to talk. Father didn't hearany of us admit, so he said, "Fine, if nobody wants toadmit, you two should be beaten!" He lifted up the bamboo stick. Suddenly, my younger brother gripped father's hand and said," Dad, I was the one who did it!"

The long stick smacked on my brother's backrepeatedly. Father was so angry that he kept on whipped my brother until he lost his breath. After that, he sat down on our stone bed and scolded my brother, "You have learnt to steal from your own house now, what other embarrassing things you will do in the future?? You should be beaten to death! You shameless thief!"

That night, mother and I hugged my brother. Hisbody full of injuries, but he didn't shed a single tear.
In the middle of the night, all of sudden I cried outloudly. My brother covered my mouth with his little hand and said, " Sis, now don't cry anymore. Everything has happened." I still hate myself for didn't have enough courage to admit what I had done.

Years gone by, but the incident still looked like itjust happen! ed yesterday. I will never forget my brother's expression when he protected me. That year, my brother was 8 years old; I was 11 years old.

When my brother was in his last year of his lowersecondary school, he was accepted in an uppersecondary school in the central. At the same time, Iwas accepted into a province's university.
That night, father squatted in the yard, smoking,packet by packet. I could hear him said, "Both our children have good results? very good results?" Mother wiped off her tears and sighed," What is the use? How can we possibly finance both of them?"

At that time, my brother walked out, he stood in frontof father and said,"Dad, I don't want to continue mystudy anymore, I have read enough books." Father swung his hand and slapped brother on his face.
"Why do you have a spirit so damn weak? Even if itmeans I have to beg for money on the streets, I willsend you two to school until you both finish yourstudy!"

And then, he started to knock on every house in thevillage to borrow money. I stuck out my hand as soft as I can to my brother's swollen face, and said, "A boy has to continue his study; If not, he will not be able to leave this depths of poverty."

Me, on the other hand, had decided not to further mystudy to university. Who knows on the next day, before dawn, my brother left the house with a few pieces of worn-out clothes and a few dry beans. He sneaked to the side of my bed and left a note on my pillow; "Sis, get into an university is not easy. I will go find a job and send money to you." I held the note while sitting on my bed, and cried until I lost my voice. That year, my brother was 17 years old; I was 20 years old.

With the money father borrowed from the wholevillage, and money my brother earned from carryingcement on his back at cons! truction site,finally, Imanaged to get to the third year of my study in theuniversity.

One day, I was studying in my room, when my roommate came in and told me,"There's a villager wait for you outside!" Why is there a villager looking for me? I walked out, and saw my brother from afar, His whole body is dirty, covered by dust, cement and sands. I asked him, "Why don't you tell my roommate that you are my brother?" He replied with a smile," Look at my appearance. What will they think if they know that I am your brother? Don't they laugh at you?" I felt so touched, and tears filled my eyes. I swept away dusts from my brother's body. And said with a lump in my throat, " I don't care of what people say! You are my brother no matter what your appearance is?"

From his pocket, he took out a butterfly hair clip. Hewore it on me, and said, "I saw all the girls in townare wearing it. So, I think you should also have one."
I could not hold back myself anymore. I pulled mybrother into my arms and cried and cried.
That year, my brother was 20 years old; I was 23 years old.

The first time I brought my boyfriend home, the broken window had been repaired.And it looked so clean inside the house.

After, my boyfriend went home, I danced like a smallgirl in front of my mother, "Mom, you don't have tospend so many time cleaning the house!" But she saidwith a smile," It was your brother who went home early to clean the house. Didn't you see the wound on his hand? He was injured while replacing the window."I went into my brother's small bedroom. Looking at histhin face, I felt like there are hundreds of needlepricked in my heart.
I put some ointment on his wound and bandaged it,"Does it hurt? " I asked him.
"No, it doesn't hurt. You know, when I was working inthe construction site, stones falling on my feet allthe time. Even that could not stop me from workingand?" In the middle of the sentence, he stopped. I turned my back on him and tears rolling down my face.
That year, my brother was 23 years old; I was 26 years old.

After I got married, I lived in the city. Lots of timemy husband invited my parents to come and live withus, but they didn't want. They said, once they left the village,they didn't know what to do. My brother also didn't agree, he said, "Sis, you just taking care of your parents-in-law. I will take care of mom and dad here."

My husband became the director of his factory. Wewanted my brother to get the job as the manager in the department of maintenance. But my brother rejected the offer. He insisted on starting to work as a reparation worker. One day, my brother was on the top of a ladder repairing a cable, when he got electrocuted, and was sent to the hospital.

My husband and I visited him. Looked at the whitegypsum on his leg, I grumbled,"Why did you reject tobe a manager? Manager will not do something dangerous like this. Look at you now, such a serious injury. Why you didn't want to listen to us?" With a serious expression on his face, he defended on his decision, "Think of brother-in-law?he just became the director, and I almost uneducated. If I became the manager, what kind of rumors will fly around?"

My husband's eyes filled up with tears, and then Isaid, "But you lack in education also because of me!""Why talking about the past?" My brother held my hand.

That year, he was 26 years old and I was 29 years old.My brother was 30 years old when he married a farmergirl from the village. In his wedding reception, the master of ceremonies asked him, "Who is the one you respect and love the most?"

Without thinking, he answered," My sister." Hecontinued by telling a story I could not evenremember.

"When I was in primary school, the school was indifferent village.Everyday, my sister and I walked for2 hours to go school and go home. One day, I lost oneof my pair of gloves. My sister gave me one of hers.She only wore one glove and walked for so far. When we got home, her hand was so trembled because of the weather that was so cold that she could not evenhold her chopsticks. From that day on, I swore that aslong as I live, I would take care of my sister and begood to her."

Applause filled up the room. All guests turned theirattentions to me.

Words were so hard to come out from my mouth, "In my whole life, the one I would like to thank the most ismy brother,"
And in this happy occasion,in front of the crowd,tears rolling down my face again.

Love and care for the one you love every single daysof your life. You may think what you did is just asmall deed, but to that someone, it may mean a lot.